I’m beginning my last week of work and my last day before maternity leave is Thursday. On one hand I wanted to work up until the end and save all of my precious 12 weeks to spend with the baby (not to mention get paid as long as I possibly can). On the other hand while I’m at work I spend a lot of time thinking of things I need to do at home and when I get home in the evenings I don’t have the energy to do them. I’m due next Sunday, but I have a suspicion the kid is going to wait until the week after that to make an appearance. So I’m guessing (guessing!) I’ll have about a week of time to finish up last minute house details, wash those final few onesies, make more food to freeze, and take a few naps before the baby comes. I just hope it’s not to long otherwise my relaxing week to get ready may pull into two weeks where I go absolutely nuts waiting. Sigh, this whole natural “the baby will come when it’s ready to come” can really mess with my controlling tendencies.

The other side of it is that J and I are getting practically obsessive with wanting to meet the baby. We met some friends in our Bradley birth class who just had their baby last weekend. We visited them on Thursday night and fell in love with their little boy Grayson aka Tank. J held him first and then I held him. He doesn’t do much these days (only being 5 days old) but he’s just so tiny and perfect that we just melted. Since we’ve seen him J says things like “can you believe how soft his skin was?” and “I could feel him breathing.” There’s just something special about a new little person – a human in its tiniest form. It got both of us really ready to hold our own! We’ve bought a swing and a bouncy chair, but I’m not sure our kiddo is actually going to spend any time in them. I suspect we’ll want to hold the baby all the time and we may have one of those babies who takes a while to walk because their little feet don’t touch the ground 🙂